| I haven't been on this thing in like 8 months lol. I didn't even know how to use it. Pretty lame.
Well not much has changed.
Still fat and ugly and totally hating on myself.
Since the last time I've wrote I got kicked out
Started talking to Jimmy again
Under alot more stress
And so on
but yeah.
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| Hey, well I haven't been doing to good. I'm so disgusted with myself. I'm so incredibly ugly and fat and gross. I'm so sick of being fat. I'm sick of not being able to buy clothes because all they have are smalls, mediums, and larges. I decided not to eat. So I didn't, and lost some weight. I started to get sick today and my mom said I had to eat. I want a guy to find me attractive. I want a guy to want to be with me and not be ashamed of me. Is that so much to ask. I want a guy to truely love me. I don't know anymore. |
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| Well, today is 3 months I've been dieting. I haven't lost anything in the last 2 days. =[. But I'm at 52 pounds I've lost so far!! woot.
lol. Okay i'm done. |
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| I forgot to mention I'm n a diet and I've lost about 44 pounds in 2 and a half months.. not even a half.
But I dont see a change.
Eat 4 times a day count cals like crazy don't eat over 600 cals...
Havent had soda in 2 and a half months
Don't eat bread unless I cheat a little..
Don't drink anything that has calories in it.
lol.
But I won't ever be skinny like some of these girls who are 100 pounds complaining about there weight... I can't stand that.
Oh, I'm so fat .. I need to lose ... blah blah.
Try actually being over weight.. I'd kill to be able to wear a size medium... even a Large.. I would be happy with.
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| Well, I see I haven't wrote anything in here since before my tattoo. Ha. Lets see me and jimmy broke up.. of course ... I miss him terribly though.. I love the little fucker. I've gotten my </3, fairy, and also my name in chinese on the back of my neck since the last time i wrote.. i dont know if i wrote about the </3. Well lets see what else I've been real depressed lately... and bored. Got nothing to do and no one to see. No friends and no boyfriend. I got a kick ass brass knuckles purse a couple weeks ago and i found another one thats different that i want. I love brass knuckles. Mhm well I don't know what else to write. Laters. |
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